sigh i had a fightish thingy with gabriel and now it feels as if we hate each other this totally sucks gabriel might move and i got all upset and im reli sad now but when im sad i get angry and start ranting on and on and say stuf i dont mean. like i was lik emabes and mights always turn into yes so i was lik eur gonna end up moving and he got all mad b/c i said tht but its true i kno it is it happend to me my mom said o im just lookin at houses we might move and she said but mostlikely not and then one day we did and i moved here to this place where i didnt even kno and its happend to my old friends they said they might move and they did its just how it happends and i was reli sad so i was just lik yelling and stuff and we just fought the whole time on the phone and now he hates me he said that i want him to move and im not sad that he is but i am im crushed and i cut 3 times agin and probly will do more by the end of the day i wish he wouldnt move i reli do things was goin so good and god just makes things more worse and i just got my confirmation too and now im wondering if there reli is a god i wish roxie and cc were here they would help but they r not and all i have is deanna who thinks she understands but reli dosent cuz shes got the perfect family and life but w/e i just want it to be over have things go back to normal i wish i was at my home over in the arrowhead escape i just wanna ....... idk blah roxie cc if u read this ne time soon call me and we can go to the beach ok TTFN