Wow i just wrote a long ass entry and i got up from the computer, i came back and i saw my fuckin sister on the computer and the diarys were gone. That fucker exited out of the diarys and didnt save it. I just started yelling at her and when i was yelling she was laughing, well its not fuckin funny cuz i said a lot of shit in there and now its gone. Grrrrrr i tell ya one day im going to bet her. Well here i go, im going to try to remember everything that i just wrote..... I had so much fun today, cuz i had my favorite Lemanade and i had a pepis. so yes i was very hyper. I was just making brittany laugh on the phone, it was so funny, i had fun! Guess what? i moved to my dads house, joy.........not!!!! i hate living with just my dad, i wish i got to live with my mom, i miss my mom so much! Now that i live with my dad i have to ride a new bus whick fuckin sux. I hate it so much. I want my bus driver to die. I mean he is nice to me and evrything but give it a week or 2 and then he will be on my ass, im sure, you just watch. For example: yesterday after school phil had his foot in the walk way on the bus and the bus driver saw and phil got a bus slip, well i dont know about you but that fuckin bullshit right there. Then (i now site in the back of the bus) when i got off the bus Jack, (the bus driver) told me that i should have more brains then that to site in the back of the bus and get mixed with the wrong croud. Well does Jack think that im going to site in the front of the bus with him, FORGETE that!!!!!!! think again jack aka jackass. From now on his name is going to be JACKASS What i am going to miss most of all is living next to sam! sam is like my sister, we have been bestfriends sence 5th grade. I love her so much. When im at my moms house, sam and i were always hanging out. But now my mom is moving to hidden valley with her boyfriend and i have to move to my dads house. Now we live about 10 miles away. To me and her....thats really fare. I mean nextstore, now 10 miles away from each other, to us, thats like being on the other side of the earth. I will still get to see her at school, so i really happy about that, but its still not the same! My mom is not all the way moved out yet.....and this weekend i get to be with my mom which is next to sam so this weekend will like be that last time me and sam will get to hangout , (we will have to make sure that we are running back and forth to each other house) thats a joke with me and sam. lol never mind me. So saturday i know what im going to be doing, spending the day with sam! Im now the phone right now with sam and i just read to her what i wrote and me and her both started to cry. Tomorrow i get to spend the day with dustin. I cant wait. god.....i love him so much, I got a letter from my ex-bestfriend and this is what her letter said..... Cassandra, U and dustin make such a cute couple he sounds sweet! I hope u guys stay together forever! love, lydia i was like wow, cuz me and her have not talk in like 2 years and then one day out of the blue she gives me that letter. Well latly she has been talking to me so, i guess she wants to be friends with me again, but anyway, tomorrow when im going to be at dustins, we are going to watch a funny movie and i think this is going to bet "the mask" because i think the mask is a really funny movie. Then we might watch another movie, but i have already seen this movie, and its really good so i dont mind seeing it again. I only wish for one thing.....that lydia is right, i hope we do stay together forever, and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever......ect...... Today i got to talk to brittany on the phone and thats something i have not done in a long time. She was one of my bestfriends and then when me and dustin started going out we drifted apart, and i miss talking to her, well im mom says i should not tell people this but o well, i started birth control and i told brittany and i told her i was going to dustins house tomorrow and then she like "just cuz you are on it dont mean you can go and have sex" i was like OMG im not ready to have sex, im only 15. I dont think anyone should have sex when there 15 but you never know.......i might change my mind, both of my cousin have lost there verginity when they were 15 so you never know......i just might. Everytime i come home from being with dustin, my mom always ask me "did you have sex" Well i always say no and i didnt.... but if we did its not like im going to say "o ya mom we did" you know what i mean. A lot of my friends have told me that i have been changing, and i have seen it too, i love it that i can be myself around dustin, before i was really shy and never talked to many guys and now im not shy at all. I pretty much can talk to any guy i want and i wont studder. lol.....yes.....i once did that. Sam has notice i have change, she was tell me that at the firemans dance i would have never talked to ryan well like half the time i was talking to him. And that was a really suprise to sam that i was talking to him. Well i better go i think i have said a lot to last me a week, i will try to say updated but you never know i might not get to come on here again for a week or longer. I Love You Dustin With All My Heart And Nothing Is Never Going To Change That!!!! I Want To Be With You For The Rest Of My Life!!!! ~Cassandra