Wow I sure did write a hell of a lot. I read a lot of peoples diary's when I'm bored as in now and there are a lot of people that have a hard life. Like some say that know one loves them and that they wish they would die and it goes on forever..... And when I'm done reading I think to my self, I have it good. I have parents, well I have my mom that loves me, sometimes I wonder about my dad, I have a boyfriend that loves me very much and everyone that relatied too. Incluing my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and I have friend that love me. Most of the time, not all the time but sometimes I really do feel bad. Like I remember reading this one diary where her mom didn't give a fuck, she was 17 years old and she had to take care of her little brother who I think was 5 years old. And that same entry she was really mad at her mom cause now her mom is having another baby. Which met that she has another baby to care for. Now she is 17, Teens are suppost to be the fun times in your life. Now her I feel sorry for. Where ever she goes she has to take her little brother. I also remember her saying that a lot of people at school thought that was her kid and she got call all of those bad names. Poor girl. I don't even remember her name, or diary name. I wish I could find it again and see how she was doing. I wonder if her mom did have that baby? Well if you are 17 and your reading this and you think this might be you, please leave me a comment and tell me how you are doing. On the other hand some people write about there problems and its like give me a fuckin break...I remember reading this girls diary and she was having boy problems. I was like a she is a teens and everything will work out cause give it a while then all that stuff won't even matter then. Then I looked up at her age...10 fuckin years old and she is having all this boy problems. I couldn't believe it. So I left her a comment saying "YOUR 10 FUCKIN YEARS OLD AND YOUR HAVING BOY PROBLEMS???? YOU SHOULD BE OUTSIDE RIDING A BIKE" But then I found out that she was pretty cool. lol. Oh well. I'm really bored right now. Babysitting again as always, and again its easy today as it was yesterday. Lydia is at school, and Julia and Morgan are sleeping. I like that I can go on the computer when I'm babysitting cause I don't get to go on very much at home. Yesterday Dustin came over. I think maybe we were at my house for about between 45 minutes to 1 hour but we just layed there and layed there and I love that. The moment was so right. I love just laying in his arms. I never wanted it to end. But ofcourse it did. We went to the store and I got school suppiles. Which was free cause my mom don't have a lot of money so she got money in the mail. Only $32.00 though and in the end the total came to $31.72 so I was really close there. After that we went to Godfathers. I had fun. Nothing more to say really about that. Oh yeah, It stormed last night really bad. It was so fuckin cool. Then we took Dustin home. I Hope he had fun. Then we headed to my Grandma's and I saw, grandpa, grandma, Kali, Amanda, Brooke, Scott, and Eve. Ok I think I'm going on about nothing so I'm just going to go. Maybe if I'm really bored then I will write some more. Who knows. I Love You Dustin so much!!! xoxoxo ~Cassandra -----------Update---------- I'm so bored. Its 1:01 and I'm ready for Dustin to come home. Dustin, I'm sorry about yesterday, about how I ate so much and that I was not thinking about what I was doing and I'm also sorry because I didn't have much to say on the phone. I Love You Dustin! Please don't ever think other wise. And I will try harder...I will walk...do situp, whatever will make me lose weight so that your happy. I'm sorry if this sounds mean, I really I'm tring baby, really I am. I Love You So Much baby! 1:06: Wow it really took me 5 minutes to write that? Oh that right I got up and put a movie in for Lydia. lol. I forgot already. I can't wait for school to start. I want summer to be done with now. That would be nice. I'm starting 10th grade and I can't believe it. My baby is going to be in 11th. Wow. Thats on real. Time really does go by fast. I just wish it would go by fast so I can go to driving school and then someday I can go and move out and live with my baby. Gush...Life is going to be so good! Well I'm going to go now. I think I'll go look at more diary's until Dustin calls. I Love you Dustin!!! ~Cassandra PS: Dustin I'm going to go outside with the kids. Call when you can. If you read this before you talk to me then leave me a comment, plz. I love you baby