fuck. i just spent about a half-hour writing an entry, and during that time, this thing logged me off. i'm pissed. summary of what i was going to write: my best friend is ignoring me. and i don't know why. but she's doing her best to offend me--and it's working. her mom went to the hospital a few days ago for some abnormal bleeding occurring in her uterus. nobody knows for sure, but it might be a sign of ovarian cancer. and my friend doesn't care. i resent the fact that she treats her family--the perfect vision of a family--like shit--and that i treat my severely dysfunctional family like they mean the world to me. i do a lot to try to make this family better, to make it work. she, on the other hand, is the most manipulative person i've ever seen. i hope her boyfriend dumps her, so she can realize that there is such a thing as -real life.- but then again, i don't think he'll ever dump her. ever. right now, i don't feel like talking to her. yeah, we're in the same group for our english class discussions (not by choice), but that doesn't matter. i don't have to speak directly to her manipulative, narcissistic face. i'm not in to revenge. but i'm not in to being ignored, either. so i'll be an ignorant bitch right back. i love being an aloof little cunt. i'd like to ditch everyone and disappear. but, at the same time, there is somebody who could end up being my new best friend. i'm not going to let her slip away (again). %0