holy shit. so i met/saw moth on saturday night (the only thing i asked for for my birthday) and it was really sweet. (next entry will be completely devoted to this.) but yeah. every day i'm more convinced that my friends aren't as friendly as they used to be. and it's sad, but i'm almost looking forward to breaking the relationships off. i need a fresh start...new people. i can only give so much of myself to other people for so long (and not get much in return) without thinking about what is really going on. one of them has concerned herself only with the goings-on of her boyfriend. another is crass, bitchy, and over-confident in herself (no, you are not a good singer--and your acting stinks. don't try out for the plays). yet another puts herself on a pedestal, and looks down from it not with the slightest care for the feelings or needs of anyone else. except her idiot boyfriend, sometimes. notice how these three all have boyfriends. next subject... sam was a sweetheart. before we started marching today, she ran over to me and said, "find me after the parade! i have your birthday present!" honestly, i never expected to receive anything. from anyone. (i never really mentioned my birthday to anyone who would remember...) but after the parade (etc.), we walked over to her mom's car. she made me a really sweet shirt (of the 100% orange type of artistry--cutecute!) and bought me a japanese movie (appleseed). and, apparently, more is coming. she's amazing. i was afraid that i'd really messed things up with the concert and all of that (i didn't feel that it went too well--our conversations were a bit uneasy), but i think we're still good. which rules. ^_^ i bought myself a violin on saturday. the strings need to be replaced--but it looks pretty good. no cracks, warping, etc. the bridge looks good, too. = } -end of broadcast day-