lookitwhatifound... Thursday, March 17, 2005 ...huh.. i feel guilty....i mean have you ever had thoughts about dating your best friend....yes i have.....man....its soooo werid....but i don't know....trying to forget about genna....i mean i really like her...but it really wouldn't work out....so i guess we should just stay friends ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ am i his best friend? not even close. we barely know each other, frankly...we've known each other for a long time, but he obviously does not know me. and i feel that i don't know him well. duh, it wouldn't work out...neither of us drive. my mom is completely and utterly against me having any contact with him. i can't deal with a lot of what he says...it's so unnerving, his strange attempt at flattery. i feel so manipulated by him, sometimes. i can't say anything close to how i feel to him, or he'll fucking implode and go nuts. i won't have that. but i won't be trapped in a relationship that i don't want (and won't be of any benefit to me--at all). in other news (haha.) i have to miss duran duran's concert on saturday night. i'm fucking pissed. this might be my one and only chance to see nick rhodes in real life...to look upon his absolutely gorgeous (manly, of course) face...my most dreamt of musician, second to mr. greenwood. jonny greenwood. (*sigh*) big paper due tomorrow. i should start working on it. ciao. or manu chao.