i'm really sick of my job. not much i can do about that, for now. sometimes, i feel as if i've lost my friends. it feels bad, but it doesn't. most of them i'd like to leave alone, but it's just that they're so clingy, sometimes--when they feel like it. they can be as aloof and careless as they please, and then all of a sudden, they'll come back around to giving a damn. and it gets irritating after a while. because many of those people are, many times, visibly uninterested in what i have to say. that's fine if they don't care. but if they don't, they shouldn't try to cover their asses. let's just get it over with already. there is one person who i really still count on, and i'm pretty sure that she won't give up on me and my hopelessness. lauren is the best.