my first semester is worthless. i can't help it to have a horrible attitude about my classes. after all, i don't have a real class until 11 am (calculus). it's ridiculous. i'm going to madison on sunday. i'm a little nervous about driving my car for such a distance...i worry about throwing the car into the wrong gear (on accident) and wrecking my car. or worse, getting into an accident. eek! this class is miserable. "let's talk about adulthood." fuck that. "what is an adult concerned with?" sex.sex.sex.sex. "what is an adult not concerned with?" other people. three steps back. undo UNdo oh shit you can't.