tormented is about the closest i can get right now. almost all of my friends are on a bus to boston right now. i paid for a spot on that fucking bus, but i'm not going. this thought is what torments me. i miss gaar. a lot. i want him to come back from d.c. so that we can drink more coffee and piss more bikers off and start making out or something. or maybe he'll rape me like he says he will. oh no! ; ] i finally got my left ear stretched out. it happened pretty quickly, to my surprise. i'm quite satisfied. (duh. it should've happened quickly. it's only a 14 gauge.) ew. something in here smells like chalk. maybe it's the dust from the furnace. ew. my brother is writing a paper on everclear. i'm supposed to tell him everything i know about them. except i don't know anything about them anymore. (oops! that's what happens when you start despising a band.) i got another set of braces today. this time they're on the top set of teeth. it doesn't hurt so bad when there isn't pressure on teeth other than the two front ones. i hope that for all of the money that my parents are pumping in to this shit that my teeth end up straight. and pretty. like how sam thinks they will.