"i want to kill myself, but i don't want to die. does that make any sense?" i'd say, yeah. I had to clean my bathroom all over today. I cut too deep and blood went everywhere. It was nice until i realized how much there was and that it was coming out of me. I haven't talked to nick or anyone still. I panicked. It was the first time i truly thought i was going to bleed to death. i poured alcohol on it and wrapped it up good in stuff. it bulged under my shirt so i wrapped the other arm the same way. i keep missing degrassi. dammit. the only reason i've watched tv at all lately. oh well. fuck life.