as we left into the blank of the coming night...he holds my leg and I stare at him... the way he sat there so calm and so steadily made me happy to be with him....I turn on the music to relief the silence that started to get me kind of that awkward feeling you get when talking into a crowd and then suddenly everyone shuts up..I didnt like that. "Hey Josh?" "yeah?" he replies in his calm voice "did you ever tell your girlfriend about us?" I stare at him in deep concern...he turns to me... "I tried...honestly...but she wasnt home to....im sorry....want me to tell her tommorow?"....I sigh...i really didnt want to be a secret from her anymore....I wanted to be able to be together where ever possible...anywhere possible...but it wasnt an option... "I really wished you would of gotten her today...but tommorow will work" I tell him...even know it wouldnt work...but I left it at that and watched him turn back to the road....he was extremely hot....even if he wasnt dressed to look perfection...even in tattered clothing he was perfection...and I wished there was a way for me to tell him that...but there wasnt....so I leave it as a kiss upon his cheek and I start to sing along with the radio.... "Ive Become so numb I can feel you there...become so tire...so much more aware..." I began....josh smiles at me.... "what!!!! you dont like my singing?" I complain in sort of a childish pout..... " of course I like your singing...Ive never heard you sing before thats all".........I smile at him....and look at the small sticky calendar upon his dash board.....I was to move back to Maine in only a few days...I didnt want to...but I had to go back to college....I may have a a house here with him but school was important...but important as josh is the question...I would have to see...it would take a few days...and thats all I had...... we arrive at a rave....called Stained Glass....I went there with him a few times in the past....he always picked up girls...I wonder if he was bisexual....it didnt matter....I am teritorial and he was mine......exiting the car we head up to the bouncer and show our Identification cards....I hated my picture...I looked like I sneezed...and the guy takes two looks before allowing me in....Music and dancing everywhere...I had no time to look around before Josh takes my hand and we head to the floor....dancing...I was never a good dancer but he didnt ever care about how I danced as long as I had fun....he moves his back to me and I knew I was getting turned on...and he knew it too....he felt me....and as soon as he brushed his hand against me....I had an awkward sensation turning me chilled and cold....and I liked it....I liked it so much I grab his hand and run with him to the bathroom.... "empty" I sigh as I pull him in and lock the door..i press him against that same door and begin to kiss him....longingly I kiss him and I knew he liked it too for he grabed my waist...and I hold one arm against the door certain I didnt want to fall on him...the other hand made its way to his pants...where I felt he was extremely hard...not a single drink and I didnt know it was possible......he moves his hands from my waist to my belt...and begins to open my pants...certain he was going to get them off....he tilts his head down out of my lips and fixed on my pants... "here lemme help" I reply opening my pants for him....he grinned and just pulls them clear down not caring what evidence fell out of the pockets....I tilt my head back as he starts to lick my legs...it felt so cold when he left a spot..i didnt care.....I was horny and wanted him..........Josh removes from below and kisses me again.... "my turn...you did it last night" I breath to him and he nods in a reply......I lift up his shirt and begin to lick his trail from his belly button to the top of his pants...where I planned ahead and taken the liberty of removing....I feel his hard cock inside if his boxers....and I couldnt resist...I pull down the shorts to reveal my estimation from last night was correct...he was huge...and I liked it.....I grasp him firmly with one hand and move in...not even taking the time to breath.......He tasted so good to me...i couldnt believe it....only 15 minutes of this taste and several bangs from the out door and he arches back leaving me a new taste in my mouth.....I clean him...it was a first for that taste but it wasnt half bad....I lean to him...pulling his shorts up and going to kiss him.....he was so relaxed in my arms......I was good apparently when he stuck his tongue into my mouth and practically murmured thank you into my lips....I smile and we pull our clothing back to its origional places....leaving the bathroom with huge smiles on our faces and holding hands..the people in line look at us disgusted....but we looked satisfied....we part from the rave not even staying for another dance...but oh well...we still had fun......