It seemed not even minutes before we reach his house this time. I liked his house.3 stories with a basement. I always wanted to consider moving in if I ever had the chance, but it was never given. He grabs his keys and heads for the door..I on his tail. He walked fast, as I just noticed that. And I didnt care how fast he was because no matter what..I could see his ass, t'was a nice ass. Didnt know why I havent grabed it yet. I shake my head and watch out for where I was walking.We stand upon his porch right under his balcany.I was a little jealous that he seemed to be richer than I.He always was...since we were little kids together. But I didnt mind it much...it just made me feel poor... He walks to that same lamp he turned on just the other night....and his house was so clean..I was afraid to sit or anything...but I didnt need to...he turns around to me with lust in his eyes...and he kisses me...tongue and all...just the usual...how I loved it.....he tasted so great to me.In fact nothing about him tasted even distinct to nasty... he rubs the back of my head while holding my side....and I move my hands upon him....grabbing his ass...I didnt know how good his ass felt...but he seemed to like it when he groans into my mouth. I notice him pull away.... "aww what did you do that for?" I ask pouting and watching him form the words to explain... " just a moment hun....I need to do somthing" I stare at him in amusement...he pulls his cell phone from his back pocket and up against his ear.Apparently it was on his speed dial since there was no pause with the phone going from his ass to his face.... "May I speak to megan?" I hear him say as he turns away....a grin forms on my face and I turn to right behind him... "hey megan...I need to talk to you.....yeah I can wait..." he puts his hand on the reciever "she just got out of the shower" he tells me and waits for her responce again..".....hey...well anyways back to what I need to talk to you about.....I........I cant marry you..." I hear a loud what? on the other side of the phone and could tell that Josh may go deaf from that one...."Hunny its...its just.....im....." she starts yelling again" MEGAN! I AM FUCKING GAY!" I was over joyed and yet sad he had to yell.....i could hear her gasp and hang up....I turn to josh... "......josh?....." i wisper in a soft voice barely noticable hoping he wasnt mad...he turns to me....with an expression of nothing....I loose a tear down my face....and he shows a sign of concern "..cody....dont worry...I love you...." he wraps me in his arms and holds me...kissing me on his forehead...I could swear I have never seen him that angry before...but i dont know if i deserve him this much.....i dont know....i just bawled right there in his arms....safe from harm...at least I hoped.......he walked me to the couch and we sat there for who knows how long...but I didnt look up until I was dry....and his shirt was soaked.... "im sorry......" I sniffed at him kind of laughing when looking down to the wet..... " its okay...as long as your fine I am happy" he smiles and takes off his shirt and walks off to retrieve another....I just turn in the couch and grab the remote...flipping through channels to stop at infomercials that looked interesting....Josh came back five minutes later.... "I want you to live with me" he blunts out right there standing infront of me in the way of the television which I just turned to southpark.......I stare at him speechless....I didnt know what to say.......of course I wanted to say yes....but I couldnt....I had a big college I needed to finish...I didnt answer him...and it concerned him more.....silence is worse than a no........ "I......I................josh...i dont know what to say..." he looks puzzled and it turns into a depressed face..... "just say yes...I dont want to live without you any longer...you have been gone for two years at that college in maine and what does it do to you? make you lock yourself away in your dorm waiting for life to return...I love you Cody...I dont want you to leave....".....I begin to cry again..all emotions built up and I started to breath hard.. everything blurry.. I had to excape..and so I run out.....leaving ....running away...I had no car with me so I just walked...I couldnt pick...of course Josh was my love...but my college would consider my future...I know it should of been an easy answer....Josh of course...but I dont know what was on that campus that made me want to stay with it...I hated to be so confused I cried myself all the way home....and I left josh there.....I dont know how he feels anymore...all I know is that I went to sleep with the phone ringing all night long........