Listening to: Taproot
Feeling: betrayed
I am seeing tunnel vision in a world that's dark and cold
I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old
I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight
I cannot believe I lost control of my fate
I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win
I can't afford to blow this one
I hate myself sometimes
I love myself
I need this way of life because it holds me
If contradictions the way of life, happiness is wealthyness is healthy
Now I've made it through those lies and deceit
I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore I am sure
Now that I've found myself again it feels great
I can't believe I'd lost control of my fate
I need forgiveness from the people I truly care about
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out
I am gonna win
I can't afford to blow this one
I hate myself sometimes
I love myself
I need this way of life because it holds me
I hate myself sometimes
I love myself
I need this way of life because it holds me
If contradictions the way of life
Happiness is wealthyness is healthy
I feel betrayed by a relationship i thought was perfect untill the end. i thought i was more, but in all i was less. i was hers, she wasn't mine, though i believed with all my heart i was. i have tried exhausting myself physically, lifting runnin cal's untill i could barely stand, yet my mind will not rest. i feel betrayed though it is over. i cannot understand why, i usaully let it all go and shrug it off. But, this has not rolled off maybe it was because she was the only one i let in and it is the only memory that can stab strait through me with no warning. I know she was wrong for me and i was wrong for her, but that doesnt excuse honesty or trust. How can we love everyone when they just use, abuse and betray you. All i ask is honesty. why is it so difficult aand why is honesty considered "politically incorrect"
i cannot understand it. I know it wasnt my fault but my heart keeps screaming that it was and i fell short. I do not like being so deep and hard on myself but this page is the only thing i can talk to these days. everyone i love has been scattered to the wind, but i am standing still.
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