As i look back over the past year i've been writing on here i see how much pain i've endured and how much time i spent hurting.. it is true, i could have stopped it, but then again i really couldn't.. That aside, what i saw in my writing and my art from the past year, is that my most beautiful peices of me were brought out by her, whether by pain or pleasure. Her engagement really hdelped me let go. Closure is coming full circle.. I'm at that moment, at the threshold of where i can let her go or dive back in. I'm letting it close for good, but i keep looking back.. I think i just need love to survive. I realize that even by hurting i could still feel her love. i just need new love, new life, i need to have more fairytales and less realities. I need feeling for my heart will never be whole again, this i can't change, but i know it can be good again. I know life is beautiful, i just need to open my eyes.