I live my life a song at a time, my mood is a song, whether it has meaning or whether i just heard it, that one song can change your entire outlook. People wanna judge my music, like that it pot head hippies and druggies. Man those guys saw a world we cant even fathom. They had an uncontrolled unconformed mindset that was wild and free and inspired me. I live in my world in my head, i can talk for hours about mothing to people who i feel i connect with, but can be with someone who is close minded and judgemental and say nothing for days. I think, i contemplate on things i watch the world around me and look for answers and feel the energy of it all, but i notice very few who hasve any idea what i'm talking about. I am dreaming of a time and place where i can just be me and live. I am a hard worker, i dont mindwork but let it be to a purpose. But why do i have to take so many classes i care nothing for because the information i s useless to my mind, why can we not learn what we desire and then form a community of people whospecialize in what they love? Why are people so horrible to people so often? if greed alone were eliminated, the world would be free. If deceit was not commonplace, if we were not taught that money was king.. If only. Where is this place? is this place in a commune? if so i would gladly join, but then, i would become restless there as well. I want to just sell everything except what i can carry on my back and my jeep and just live on the coast. I would have a job i wouldnt feed off of welfare like many. understand i am not lazy, i run 6 miles a day and work most nights and have worked since i was 15, primarily in feed mills, which is known to be hard work, but i enjoy it. I just want to live just to exist somewhere beautiful and quiet. The thing that keeps knawing at me through all of this is, with the exception of my dog, there is noone to share it with. Is beauty and freedom truly experienced, is it real with noone to share it with? would lonliness overpower the peace and beauty? I have one dear friend who i would like to experience it all with, there is noone like her which is sad because if the world were made up of people with her outlook and mindset, we would live in utopia. I love her, she inspires me, and i miss her terribly. I know our paths must cross at some some point again. i hope they do, for i dont know if antone could ever love me like she does, for me, and because i worry that i may never love someone as i love her. We never kissed seldom touched and were never romantic, but we were real, and we understood each other, which i think was rare for her, as i know it most definitley was for me. Knowing she is there is the greatest comfort in my life. Thank you for listening.