I am going to attept to continue writing on here. I havent had the words to say in so long i'm not sure what to write. I have been lost for so long i can't even piece together and accept what happened and where i am. Today i was offered closure but i couldnt accept it, though she has. i feel this weakness has brought me down in everything. I cant forget and cant let go, all the promises that crumbles in front of us untill we weren't us anymore. It's me here and her there. I can't bear thewords that i'm typing. She is in love with someone else and she is letting go of me completely. this time last year we were planning to elope, now i'm here withot my friend. nothing scared me with her. i knew we'd always be fine as long as we were together. now i still make it through but everything is so painful. if you've read this then thank you because you're the only one who knows how much i hurt. i have to put on a fake smile and face my family tonight.