I have people all around me but might as well be alone. They come they go i watch and wonder why they are the way they are. I wonder if i will find anyone here who will really unerstand me. Not that i dont have people who love me, but only one or two on earth really understand me, and they are both distant from me. I try to be intimate, but i know you will never see the real me, maybe its my fault, all the walls i put up to keep the ignorant shallow people who surround me out. I want to show you everything under this fake smile,but i know you would only judge me. you want to judge my music my tattoos my attitude and my lack of tolerance for ignorance or disloyalty? you want to say i was lazy and stupid for smoking weed? Ha it is because of people like you that i smoked, i needed my escape in my worl inside my head when i couldnt leave physically. But i quit, now what? i'm left to face this world that i could never be a part of and you expect me to be nice to everyone and tell me " it's what jesus would do". yeah but Jesus also fucked up that temple when it was corrupted. Well the world is His temple and its seriously twisted and corrupt. Call me what you will, I am me and if you dont like it then you can leave my life the same way you came into it just like all the girls before you. Find you a shallow rich boy in expensive clothes and i bmw. Im happy in my jeep with my dog heaed to the mountains or stone at a concert. Take me as i am or leave me the hell alone. i wont bend and i wont break so accept me or let me get on with my life.. I would miss you, but then again thats nothin a bowl and maynard cant cure.