Listening to: Death Cab- Bixby Canyon Bridge
Feeling: sublime
It's all happening. So i am letting the wind blow me, i'm gonna be free like i always dreamed. I can't help what people think or what my family says, i just know i'm going to live my life the way i want to. I'm not settling or conforming anymore, I'm just going to be me and that just isnt possible with me sitting still, wondering what all is out there. I gotta see it for myself and feel it. I want to live my life like it should be and so I'm going to. Its all happening
I want you to know alot of things. I haven't messaged you for good reasons. For awhile I was freaking out and feeling dead and i could never cut you short of a heartfelt message, never worry if we dont talk for some time, ill always come back to you and i never forgot you, I'm always here. Just sometimes im not all there. I live in my world very alone with little human contact and nothing to be passionate about sometimes. thats the life the military tries to shake you with. But do not be shaken and neither will I. There are so many things i wish to talk to you about. Ive been trying to find that fire again, and i think its coming back. All i can think lately is i can't wait to be free again. I have read and watched into the wild over and over again because its the only thing i understand and that gives me temporary freedom of mind and spirit. I will always be here zach. Don't give up. And wait for me. I'm going to come back one day and we will go to salvation mountain.I love you