I want to fuckin explode. I want to travel i want to just leave, why cant anyone understand that it is just a important as food water and air, that i live out my dreams andfollow my spirit. I'm suffocating in this invisible prison. I dont want to hurt my family or friends, but they must understand. God why cant they see, im not like them. I cant be me in their world. I cannot conform. I have to get out, i'm screaming but noone can hear it. I have everything but nothing. I dont want these "things". I want to live.. give me my backpacking gear my jeep and my dog. I'm pretty fuckin easy to please but everyone says im difficult. I just want to be left to do my thing and i dont fuck wit anyones stuff just let me live my life the way i wanna live it. I always have the best of intentions and i only get violent when people are being outright wrong and making the world worse. I may have to give up this security and support.. I need to follow my own twisted path and get off the highway everyones on. Just leave me alone and let me escape to my own world. I wont cause any trouble. Just let me be thats al i ever asked.. I keep holding on trying to find happiness here but it is not in my nature.. All i want is freedom for full expression of self, gandhi said that think. For now though i will get lost in music painting and running it is my freedom to be me, tho it islonely and bittersweet.