i knew this girl. or THIS GIRL. who had the most beautiful browneyes. and the worst girl-sense i/ve ever seen. or SCENE. she was pretty snf i mean PRETTY in that way that most girls lack these days. oval-square face. with large almond shaped eyes. and dimples that could kill. in a second. she had wit and too much strength. sarcasm was her art. and i/m in love with it. unfortunately... damn her. and damn me. for playing along. all of the time. these past few weeks. i/m confused beyond words. and part of me selfishly believes i could do better. but only because she/s not blonde and a size 0. does it matter. i don/t know. in my real heart i would like to think so. but knowing her. i know enough. damnit. wasn/t i gay? i don/t get it. at all. damn you el-rizza. and damn me. -sincerely. -alahandro the awesomely lost