I went to Connor's dad's viewing today. I finally got to see Connor. Thank god. I was so worried about him, but now I see he's ok for the most part... I really do hate crying though. And being a guy, I feel like I gotta hide it. Life seems to be going to shit for me lately. Nothing is going at all the way it could. Nothing works. My school life isn't working out, my damn grades are slipping. Work isn't working out, cause I'm working almost too much for my own good and now I'll get in trouble for getting out too late last night. Sleep isn't working because of the two above problems. And then there's the ever present Kayla problems. Those are worse than ever. I know am 100% positive that she is just trying to keep me around for the hell of it but for no benefit of her own but to watch how miserable I am. Plus she's turned at least one of her friends against me, and I'm not exaggerating when I say I didn't do anything to deserve it. I sure hope her date with that other guy went nicely though... I've heard he's a jerk but if he's better than me in her opinion then I want her to have him. I sure do love her... but not when it comes down to this road that I've traveled before. God, I just wanna cry, and I know I will be doing that in just a little bit when I finally simmer down for bed. I really love her... Rin is back with Tristan! Hehe, he sounds like a cute kid so I hope she is with him for longer because she deserves only the best. Love you Rinnie! Anyways... I haven't complained for a while but I know that I just gotta let something out somehow to a non-judgemental thing such as the internet. Sorry for bitching to anyone that actually read this. *Peace