It would be so fascinating to just be someone else and see myself from an outsider's point-of-view. To have nothing better to do but watch myself, but in third person. Right now, of course, everything seems so difficult in my life. But I would probably realize that what I’m dealing with is nothing. I could see how lack of religious convictions is affecting me. I could see where my bad or good choices are taking me. It would be so amazing just to… watch. Hell, even to interrogate myself in an honest, truth serum type of way would be so great. I could learn so much about myself to just… as myself questions. To figure out why I actually do what I do. You would think it would be easy to figure that out right now… as myself, but it really isn’t. For the most part, I’m on cruise control right now. Cruise control with the air conditioning turned up and my stereo blaring whatever choice of music I feel like at that moment. But to actually SEE what’s going on, that would be great. Perhaps one day I’ll understand. Perhaps one day, me, the deistic, almost agnostic, teenager. Right now I think I’m doing well… but maybe I could see that I needed things I’m not giving myself. If things turn out well, I wont be surprised, but I will be interested at how things happened that way. Anyhow… just putting my two cents in on my own life. How about a penny for your thoughts? Just let me keep that extra penny. I hope I don’t need to change.