Well i'm finally going to be 21. February 1st dances teasingly ahead of me, just waiting for me to get there. I'm not sure whats going to change, if anything at all. But i'm going to be out of that adulthood flux state that i've felt like i've been in since 18. We sign our lease tomorrow, and get to move in after that. Things just feel so good right now. Sean's going to be 26 in Feb too. I hardly think about him being so much older though. Age just isn't an issue with us and thats nice. I've been with him over a year and a half. This is the longest,most stable and rewarding relationship i've ever had. I finally feel like i've met someone I could spend the rest of my life with, and it doesn't seem all that frightening. I'm just so.. content. Its all just so comfortable with him. Theres things that get on my nerves, but its nothing major. When we do have an issue, it gets resolved. I feel at peace right now. That comforting feeling I get when I sit outside during a summer rain and just let the water wash over me taking away all the evil and bad things i seem faced with in the world. Rain is my element and he is my summer storm. I can't wait for the warm rains again. I long to feel the water wash my soul. To feel the goddess cleanse me. That warm sensation along my back has returned. That gentle pushing feeling on the two places along my spine. Its odd, but comforting and I really can't explain it, but it feels good. Everything feels so good right now. ~Ravenfox