I felt today. Odd to say that, but its true. It seems like its been so long since someones evoked something close to passion or a strong emotion in me. I've just... been. The only thing it seems I've felt in ages is longing. Longing for something more, a taste of the passionate and firey person that I was. The only thing that had been able to evoke that in me is my dreams. It feels somedays that my dreams are more real then the waking world. But I felt today. I bonded on some level, and while I still feel invisible to most the world, I feel kindred to someone else now. Someone that understands where I am. *smirks* Funny that I should speak of him here, a person I know only on-line. But, in talking to him, knowing hes going through the same thing with his girlfriend that I am with my raven, helped me to unlock my emotions. I know things need to change in my life if I am to ebb the slow, bleeding death of my passions, if I hope to feel anything and make it seem more real then anything again. But until then, I remain invisible and sober. I fade into the darkness of dreams where I may still feel. And for now, I cherish the feeling before I become... numb.