Listening to: Tyr - Dreams
Feeling: achy
"When you love, you do things out of love. But when you do too much, love turns to resentment. And the resentment turns you cold"
I feel stuck. I love sean.. my raven.. but I can feel my love drifting.. turning into the scariest thing of all. Resentment. I've been supporting him since october. If he was actively looking for a job right now, that wouldn't be a problem. He's actually getting better about sleeping at night.. which is something that really bothered me. I hate sleeping alone. But.. he doesn't -sleep- with me. Its been around 3 weeks since the last time we slept together like that. I would think he was cheating on me if I didn't know better. But I'm starting to feel like a roommate he occasionally has sex with. And I hate that. I don't want that. *sighs* I want to fix this. But i've talked to him.. several times in fact.. have bluntly offered it to him.. nothing. It makes me feel undesireable. Makes me feel as if theres something wrong with me. I hate to say it, but if this keeps up.. I may be single again soon. .... Gods it tears me to pieces to even write that here. I do love him. But I need more from a relationship then this....
~Ravenfox
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