I'm so pissed off at my mom. I cut some of my hair without telling her and she got all pissed at me and wont shut up about it. she just goes on and on about how dissapointed she is i did that and is like "you get so many complements on your hair why would you destroy it" and i 'm like " i didint fucking destroy it mom! jeez" i barely cut anything (compared to last time) just a little but in the front so i had sorta bang kinda things...girrrrrrrr i swear that lady hates me everyday she complains to me about how she cant stand this house hold and she hates everything about it then she goes on complaining about how we are so disorganiezed or whatever and is always fucking disgusted ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh shut up mom! and i know she hates me. just becuase i cant meet her expectations and be a little stuck up goody good...thats not me at all and it never will be so she betteer get over it it really pisses me off she pisses me off everyone pissed me off ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn i have a swim meet today.....i hate those shitters we hafta swim cary swim club and our pool and their pool swim teams' are really close so we hafta work realy hard to do good. and thats the last thing i wanna do right now. i dont feel like moving at all. i wanna lay down all day and forget about everything. then maybe i'll fall asleep and never wake up..... plus i'm in main event (the only heat that gets points) for freestly AND backstroke so i hafta get 1st 2nd or 3rd to get us points...and that gona be hard... (i suck) i wanna go lay in a dark closet in the corner...and never come out