***sigh*** ok so last night i was so frikin mad at my mother!@%&*!@%$#^$ so the plan WAS: aaron and david's party 6-10. i was gona go to chloe's around 4 or 5 ish. then go to the party with her without my mommy knowing. then sleeping over at chloe's. BUT GUESS WHAT! my mom didnt want me out the night because she gay and stupid! :-( girr i was spoooo pissed. IT WASNT FAIIRr! she thought i'd get sick and she didnt want me sick for the firkin tripe...which btw isnt for another firkin week. @*!($*%&!ARGH!@*$&%@# :- i reeealy wanted to go. Ok so me and chloe planned to go the mall today...but then Lily (old bestfriend and neighbor) called and wanted to hang out and give me my birfday present...AND I COULDNT PASS THAT UP! PLus i havnet seen her in forrrever so i HAD TO SAY YES! :-D. so she's coming at 3- 3 30 ish. so i thought " hey me and chloe can go to the mall from like 12-230/3.....soo i called her and we played phonetag. and it was all confuzing but in the end we decided not to go to the mall. so here i am typing until lily gets here. *sigh*chokes* i reeeally wanted/needed to go the mal. i gotsta gets my christmas presents for all me peoples...maybe tomorrow... annd i REEALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to go to the party...girr its so annyoing and my mom just BUGS THE CRAP OUT OF ME! sometimes i'm too afriad to talk to her because i know she'll just blow up at me and critisize me and start telling me how much she hates who i am in the nicest way possible...which she doesnt know actually hurts my feelings...:- sometimes i just wanna get away from here. when i hit HS i'm siging up for driver's ed and get my liscense as soon as possible so i can get the hell out of here. life's a bitch there's nothing to live for anymore so there's nothing to loose gona get dresed ~peeace~