"remembering.... those times we had and you were always there my mind is looking towards the future but my heart is stuck in the past remembering.... the things you said that i believed they weren't true and now i know..." ~me (inspired by TMW) yesterday i went to the beach! it was fun. There were these surfers....ahhh...so hot and nice bodies! they reminded me of andrew...haha the waves weren't that good but thats ok...its was still fun ... and i was walking along the beach and i saw the head of a fish in the sand..haha it was FREAKY! and i just got back from southpoint with chloe...its was so fun. We ate chick-fil-a like loners! haha hell ya!` and in the food court there was this big mob of ghetto people! haha it was hilarious there had to be at least like 15 of them waling around...then they dissapeared..haha me and chloe are having a halloween party- oct. 30 - its gona kick ass.. most everyone will be from Dillard....sharon and molly might be going and shilo might....i dont know.....but like they prob dont want to because they wont know most the peeps....hehe ok so sean is fucking flying down tonight...i'm so scared/happy/nervouse/not happy/confused i mean he's been in new york at boarding school ( his parents sent him b/c of his "problems) for two years....and i havent seen him in that long. And i just started talking to him again like a month and a half ago... before that i hadnt seen him, talked to him or even talked ABOUT him! so i'm pretty curious to see how he's changed...i mean he must have changed...thats kinda why he left... but then i was talking to himn a little while ago and he said ANDREW WAS COMING TO nc FOR A VISIT...like holy fucking crap! its been 5 months and i miss him soo much....but i dont know if i should believe sean...i just hope andrew is coming for a visit...but only for a good reason...i mean what reason could he have to come so randomly? i guess since they cauught his dad its ok...and i thought he had to go to court with him on sunday...idk maybe not...i'm just so flippin excited to see andrew...i mean we're back together and its not gona work out..i know...and i just want to see him1!!!!!!! well i should go later ~peace out~ ~~~ shit...i just realized something--- i think i'm more nervouse bout seeing sean than andrew...thats not a good thing