the burning inside me it never goes away i know the things no one knows the things i never told i want to be open but i'm just too afraid i dont want to forget you but you only cause me pain so this is when i decide to let you go i have nothing more to hold back except to throw it all into the flow let it pass let it dance i'll watch it scream my name right in front of my face i have nothing more i can control but the small things no one cares about there's so much to say within these small lines i only wish things had been different i'm realizing i seem to blame it on myself it was all you its always been you i feel like my depression comes back more and more all the time and i've figured out that its only when i think about you i'm sorry for screwing up for being stupid like i was i'm full of flaws that i try to rub off i hate being in this world where everything seems to turn dark and than there you are in the distance the way i never imagined then its all over and i wake up from my nightmare realizing its time to draw on my smile and pretend i've always been happy i cant stand holding back all this time it was never real and i've realized i cant keep pretending so i'll make myself a deal i can try to make myself happy with all my might but before i know it i'll have a hell of a night i'm walking in circles drawing the lines your face is my beauty it runs through my mind but now its time to erase that part and know you were never true because i cant keep thinking about those things that hurt both me and you i want to pretend i'm fine. i want to know medicine isn't the answer. i want my sanity back. i need it all erased.