AHH! i'm going crazy! i miss andrew sooo much!i'd do anything to see him...even talk to him! i'm going to california for x mas break but idk if can see him :- i mean just thinking about him depresses me. his life is destroyed because of his damn dad. that bastard. life just isnt the same. sometimes i still think to myself "maybe i'll go over to andrew's later...." then remember " oh...ya :-( " if i ever see his dad i'll jump on him and kill him with my bare hands. if i ever saw andrew i'dd jump on him and make out with him...hah ok maybe not. but i'd hug him and never let go. i just feel miserable. i dont want to go to school tomorrow. i'm just so sick of pretending to be happy.