i just got off of work...well like 3 hours ago or so....anyway. tonight was fun not really quite depressing actually...A flirted with me a lot he told he i was beautiful...blew me kisses...hugged me and asked me if hecould hold me forever. umm..hell yeah you can hold me forever. but all i dsaid was yeah. then he walked off and said bye. i really like him alot but i dunno if he really likes me or if he's messing around. i wish he would stop if he is. it mkaes me really sad that he may not really like me. then again that's how it always is. i think myabe i'll ask M to ask him or get the scoop because...well i haven't writen this so here's why M would know...i started mkaing salads monday like two mondays ago actually and so i was working the next tuesday and M asked me if i like this kid named mark...which i don't then he was like what abouyt my boy A and i just smiled and he was like what's wrong with A and i was like nothing...so he knew i liked him cuz i kept smilling at the mention of his name and so he called him and told him but i dunno what he said. today he asked how old i was and i said 15 and he said too ytoung for me and i wanted to tell him to stopp messing with my feelings but i just walked off like i had something to do..so i guess i'll ask M monday or tuesday. i hope to God he likes me. i really lost my faith in God for a cou-ple of weeks there but now i'm over that. i fully believe in God and i think i should start praying more like i shouold. i know i can't be perfect but i really wish i oucld take some stuff back ive done lately. anyway back to A he makes me depressed...well not him exactly but the though of him. i can't think about him without feeling sad. i work with A tomorrow. shouod i be sad or not?sometimes when he's around or when i think about him my jaw feels kinda funny...i dunno maybe it's the begining of lock jaw.