gee wiz.Today is 5 months for me and Andrew and he has a sinus infection and is fatigued so he wants to rest all day. i wanna see him so bad. i understand he needs rest and i keep trying to tell myself that it's best for him which it is but i just can't stand not seeing him. when i know i can see him but i don't i get so sad and depressed and i feel lost like i don't know what to do. gees. i know i need to get out and do other stuff but all i ever wanna do is be with him so when i can't if i don't have anything to occupy my time i'll go insane. i feel so selfish knowing he's sick but i'm still bothering with seeing him. he does need his rest and i care about him alot and i want him to get better but i don't think i can stand it. if i have to go all weekend and not see him i'll seriously go crazy. i think tonight i'll go to the movies with Adam because his girlfriend is gone and my boyfriends sick. some way to celebrate being together. maybe it'll pass by pretty quickly so i can get to tomorrow and hopefully see Andrew. i love him forever <3