today was one of the weirdest days of my life. i came home from school and bianca (my exgirlfriend, who i endlessly talk about on this thing), was sitting on my porch. it was so bizarre, she was being NICE. and it was the strangest thing, she kept talking about how we should be friends, even though she wants to be more than friends with me. i told her we tried that but it didnt work, and it hurt me, and she was the most difficult person to get along with. she started crying. things like that go through my head all the time when i cant sleep at night. but none of my scenarios had the outcome of today. she started crying, and in my head i was saying just go inside, but instead i comforted her! i finally got her to go and she said she'd call me and i said it was okay. i dont want to lead her on. shes the bitch that haunts my dreams and i comforted her. i feel so stupid. i really dont want to get back together with her. i dont want her to think that we have a chance to be together again. we had a few good times, but they are all outweighed by the bad. and i dont love her anymore. i dont think she ever loved me. i REALLY dont want her back in my life. what goes through her head!?