she rang me. i told her i was busy. brushed her off as quickly as i could. i told her to meet me at the swings around the corner from school, but then i rang back and cancelled it until tomorrow. i need to prepare a speech or something. "bianca, i hate you now. being with you was torture and breaking up with you was one of the best and smartest things i ever did." how do i make that sound nice? i'll find a way...i always do. the sound of her voice makes my skin crawl. i dont want this. i really dont. i let her get away with being the way she is too many times and now its too late and she thinks she can walk all over me. shes crazy. i think shes actually insane. whats the diagnosis? i'll think of something while im NOT sleeping. if not, i'll just have to improvise.