I've been trying to feel better about this for a long time now. A very long time. There's something weird about the way it corrodes my peace of mind, my assurance about the way things will be. My confidence in a lack of interference. It just disappears, only to be built up again. I don't want others. Not that way. They can be across our street, in other houses, on the outside looking in. They don't need to be inside. Their influence needs not be felt. It just needs to be erased. I just need to feel like it might not be there anymore.