So, I have been absent for almost a month, as Dania puts it, and I thought it was time to write again. I've taken a break from SD for a few reasons: 1) It was getting to the point where, for a while, writing here wasn't doing me any good. It wasn't making me feel better, wasn't giving me any therapy to the outside world like it normally does. Instead, I've been working a little more on poetic stuff, and that can be found here. 2) I've really been conflicted over this year, and have had too much, yet too little, to write about. I'm finding that in the midst of the business, the motivation just doesn't exist because I'm torn about writing about everything that is going on in my head, and writing about nothing at all. 3) I've been really homesick, and I've found myself wondering a lot about other people, places, things. Just distraction in general. But now, I'm ready to return, and I have plenty to write about. For example, a physics teacher position has opened up in Dexter. Apparently, the teacher there just found another job that was better, and jumped ship. I'm sending in my resume, cover letter, and references tomorrow, despite the fact that the school would want me by December 4th, despite the fact that I won't graduate until May. If I get the job, I can do what I love while making tons of money and taking my last classes here at UMaine. Good stuff. My company has gone totally stupid on me. The natural, primary function of a RadioShack Sales Associate is to...sell. Well, the company has decided we don't know how to do that anymore. We don't know how to do our jobs. So they've invented all this shit that we have to wear on our belts that reminds us how to do our jobs. And all the while, we're still stuck making pennies over minimum wage. The pay raises we were supposed to get in July are apparently still being hotly contested. Do we get them, or do we not? And not only that, I'm finding that I'm having trouble living in dorms. My roommate is never around, and I kinda miss sharing a room with someone who's there all the time. No offense against Jamie, who's a good guy that I like a lot. I just feel like I wake him up a lot. That, and Shannon's roommate is starting to show her true colors. She's bossy. She's negative. She's pushy. She's inconsiderate to others who happen not to have her name. She's wasteful, and she has a BAD conception of what is 'disgusting'. She treats people like shit when things don't go her way. I can't stand that. I like her, and all, but sometimes I wonder how someone can be the way she is. And I KNOW Shannon's not happy about the way things are going because her room is always above sleeping temperature, mostly due to the fact that they have a third roommate: a blue-yellow salamander named September. It isn't fair that Shannon can't sleep at night simply because the room is kept warm for that lizard. If that's not inconsiderate, I don't know what is. And when she tells me that I can't leave CLEAN, HOT dishwater in the sink, well, then, that's the last straw. That's when I stop doing dishes. It just seems like I've grown up way too fast, and I can't say anything about the objections I have to the way people act and treat one another. Almost like being immature must be rewarded by the mature, almost like mature people must keep their mouths shut, for fear of losing their maturity to immaturity. It's unfair, but that makes me want out of here even more. I just want to have that job in Dexter, teaching and living with Shannon and Shannon only, with no other cares. It's so close, yet so far, and I can't stand it. But yeah. So, that's it. I'm back. With a vengeance. It feels good once again. :)