FUCKING BASTARD...

by starryeyes
My boyfriend did drugs then denied it, cheated on me with a 300 pound gothic bitch that he doesnt even know her name, called me a bitch behind my back, lies to me constantly, and so on and so forth, and i gave him 44 chances, and yet, he still says he loves me? IF HE LOVES ME WHY WOULD HE RISK OUR RELATIONSHIP OVER SOME FAT CHICK THAT HE DIDNT EVEN KNOW HER NAME SOME LOVE i cant stop crying, im so incredibly broken, every single time i'd always forgive him, but after 44 chances i beat the shit outta him, i knocked him in the face like 20 times i dont understand, and yet we're still together, cuz he says that he still wants to stay together, and i still do to cuz i love him, but he even said the cheating and lying and drugs and all that stuff will probably keep happening i dont know what to do i cant break up with him i love him too much i really really do everyones just been saying 'hes not worth it, ur too good for him' and stuff like that, but its not that easy to just dump him i LOVE him and i have a few GREAT guys who dont lie or cheat or anything like that, and theyre totalli perfect and theyre both inlove with me like totalli totalli inlove with me and yet for some reason i just cant seem to go out with one of them. theyre perfect, theyre just not perfect for me i dont know what to do im having a breakdown please help me, this is the one time i need more help than ever -Starry Eyes
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Chapter 1 Is Done And In My Diary :)
mmkay...maybe you should try em out. least make sure there not right. stead of always wondering
[Anonymous]
Well known fact~ men need to be beaten regularly.

Sidenote~ First ask yourself why he did some other girl? Had you to not been sharing much affection was he lonly? Does it make it your fault if you two werent doing stuff? No it doesnt but does explain things. First rationalize everything that your mad at him for then figure out what you can live with and what need to change (on both sides). ~Muse
[Anonymous]
Chapter 3 Is Done And In My Diary :)
In the end, all of this is your choice. It's not something you can ask other people and just wait till you get an answer you like. It doesn't work that way. Just think about what your priorities are. Love isn't everything, m'dear. Don't beat yourself up over it. Don't let yourself get hurt. You really can fall in love more than once.. and it hurts a lot. But it does get better. Watch horror movies. Eat ice cream. And throw darts at his picture.
[Anonymous]
haha. I'm glad you like my entries. How's everything going with the boy toy? just kick him in the balls and see how that goes. lol feel better *hugs* xo
[Anonymous]
Well Yah Kinda But It'z The Only Part Bout The Dad Not Wanting Her 2 Be Wit Him, That'z All So In A Way Yes But In A Way No, It'z Not That The Dad Doesn't Like Him As A Person, He Just Wantz His Daughter 2 Marry A Prince That'z Y
Chapter 2 Is Done And In My Diary :)
Awww Thank U. Yah I Know I'm A Weird Writter I Didn't Really Pay Attention 2 Those Kinda Thingz *Shurgz* Oh Well LoL I'll Probly Right The Next Chapter 2Morrow I Really Wanna Write A Chapter A Day But I Doubt That'z Gonna Happen But I'm Gonna Try :)
I'm sure there is not plausible advice that anyone can give you to make you feel better. But I really hope it works out for you. That is a really shitty situation. It seems that we always want what is bad for us. Maybe you don't want to let go because you think you can change him? I might be wrong. But If that's the case, then I wouldn't try it. Only he can change himself. You'll only hurt more trying. Whatever happens, I wish you well.
aw i'm sorry. theres honestly nothing to really say except guys can be bastards. i'm really really sorry that he is treating you like this. i know how it is to love someone so much and know that you should break up but cant. i hope you feel better and he stops being an asshole.
[Anonymous]
out for the better. and even if it does turn out in heartbreak (like my relationship did) atleast you will have learned something. and even though you're hurting, i doubt you would take any of it back and lose all the good memories you made with him. i know i wouldn't. and thanks for the comment you left. and yes my hair is still sexy...just with an added inch and a half of dark roots, lol. well anyways, have a swell night.
it sounds like you would be better off without him. but i know how it is to be in love with someone and feel like it's not two sided. i couldn't end it with my first love...and he ended up seeing someone else behind my back and breaking my heart. so i know that no matter what people say, that if you're inluv, you're most likely to follow your heart and not the advice of other people. so follow your heart and nothing else. maybe it will turn
k so the first comment didn't save but it was just basically saying that he obviously is worth it to you if you've let it happen 44 times [44. calibre love letter]. and my dad cheated on my mom and i broke up with my boyfriend and then asked him out again and he said yes so who knows...i like second chances.
[Anonymous]
yes so i mean I'm all for second chances or whatever it takes to make it work. But the fact that he said it would probably would do it again has to question if he's totally sure that this is what he wants. maybe just give it some time and see how he acts. but you have to let him know that you're not willing to let him walk all over you and that you're not an object that he can pick up and throw away whenever he feels like. keep smiling. xoxo <3
[Anonymous]
man. sorry you feel so shitty. *hugs* I'm not gunna sit here and tell yeh that he's not worth it because I know that....he is. and fu
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