sXe ,...what?

Listening to: loui loui - iggy pop
Feeling: alive
recap the weekend... thursday night i took a friend out to the movies and coffee afterwards all after work. it was nice friday night i went to work and then went to starbucks with pat and andrew. Saturday i went to khols with pat andrew and droped pat off then andrew and i went to the mall. we got nothing. then went to a book store and i couldnt find my book. so we went to best buy and i bought a CD/DVD rack shelf system, USB HUB, and then we went to borders in carmel. yuck i know no one knows where the hell that is!... ok. well after we went to borders (got FIGHT CLUB, the book! its really good so far {5th chapter}) we were like .. hey lets go to a fancey restauraunt. so we went to Macaroni grill. i had a calozonettos with peppers and mushrooms. it was GREAT then andrew and i shared a "desert ravioli" it was breath taking. this door girl who sat us, was amazing. really. her smile was.. oh man! im going back. :-0 then i went home and had a "scott night" where i sat on the computer and then watched a movie. i seam to have ALOT of those. Sunday night i went to The Locust with pat! we stood outside for an HOUR! in the FREEZing cold. EVERYONe was cold. i couldnt move. i got sick. but not badly sick. the show was Awesome. i really needed that. i really needed a good night. met a boy from El Dorado! small world! The locust had a sticker that said "Anything Jesus can do i can do better!" ahaha. i dunno if thats negative or motivational? monday i woke up late. got subway (on my day off, im a nerd) came home. watched donnie darko. did nothing. back to school tuesday. new semester. ok classes but i hate my homework load. damn a good weekend because i didnt have to go back to thinking abotu school ONCE! not homework nothing! nothing to deal with that god forsaken place. i wanted to live life hard all weekend. i went on a date, went to a show, hung out with freinds.. SHOPED... too bad everyweekend couldnt be like that! and i worked! i accomplished something at the same time! i feel alive because of this. i hope this lasts. and i decided some things on my future. my options. they are ones i like and there is one i dont like. but yea. a long weekend well deserved. i love julie, got a letter in the mail from her today and it was touching! i gotta send out some letters! i have the deep urge to. to tell all my friends how much i love them, cuz diary, i DO LOVE THEM. oh and kids at school were being extra nice today? that wont last though. more stuff happend i guess? but i sparer details for the people who like condensed books.. hearts::scott::hearts
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i am a silly little girl and i have changed like whoa since you have moved to indiana. for the better i may add. and oh, i saw you one day... hehe.
[Anonymous]
sXe . . . straight edge, i like guys like that ;o)
[Anonymous]
i love you a lot scotty. that letter writing stuff sounds like a good idea man. i think i will send you one soon dood. miss ya.

<3
switched names so that if they like my writing they can't say well so and so isn't capable of writing something like that. or she doesn't feel that. or whatever. people don't like me all that much cos i am different or whatever, but the thing is i am a lot like all of you, but nobody will take a deeper look at me and see that.
oh well, i am over it.
sorry for bugging you babe.
[Anonymous]
have talked on the phone now that i think of it. and yeh, we hung out but i thought you didn't want me to be around. so yeh, i am a retard i guess. and no, you did not know i had this sit. i had a different one, but i stopped it cos people that new me were too judgemental cos of who they thought i was. but the thing is that i am way different, and nobody will take the time to notice that cos they see me the same old way they always have. so i
[Anonymous]
oh my gaad, you are the sweetest kid ever. yeh, it was good to see you that morning, i wish i would have had you drive me down the street that morning, i would have avoided being kicked out of my house. that was a bad day and the previous night was just as bad. and i looked horid when i saw you. ugh, bad times. oh how i have changed, even since then. it amazes me. and thanks for being so kind to me, you are a doll. really. and yeh, i think we
[Anonymous]
i sent you an email hun...
enjoy the laughs it will bring
[Anonymous]
i love you. thank you so much for listening to me.. it means alot to me.

i love you.. forever!

-julie
[Anonymous]
haha love, you are funny. perhaps you don't remember me. that would be a good thing, but i know you would if i told you my name. but it will be for secrets. between you and me. deal?
and yes, i was speaking of desiree vince doll, you are a quick one. hehe. and yes, i know what you mean, it was a long time ago, i seem to remember the strangest things.
hearts<3, someone not worth your time to wonder about..
[Anonymous]
I've never had food that was breathe-taking. Dammit.
[Anonymous]
Chut up! Besides, there was a fat guy looking at us...
[Anonymous]
soctt i love you!! you're beautiful and awesome and we need spanish together :(

-brittany
[Anonymous]
hey scotty just saw you bought fight club after our little chat, chuck palahniuk is just omg my favorite. ha!
i love you --> ALYSSA!
[Anonymous]
donnie darko and fight club huh? both really really good, but i have never read the fight club book. you'll have to tell me how it turns out
scotty, are you sXe? if so... you rock even harder than you did before! do you work at the subway on oaklandon? i think someone mentioned that a couple monthes ago...

heart heart heart
[Anonymous]
youll have a good weekend .. youre on a roll
no no no doll, i never called you dull, maybe i had a typo but you are not dull. i read your entries like all the time but i was always too nervous to
[Anonymous]
and we weren't all that close. i hung out with you at some birthday of yours in junior high and at desiree's house and i used to like you at one point
[Anonymous]
oh i almost forgot, i am not "punk rock" or anything like that. i don't even listen to punk. we didn't hang out much, only a few times out of school
[Anonymous]
they will look at my diary differently if they know it is me.
if you really want to know who i am i will tell you, via email only.okay?
bye scott...
[Anonymous]
it at that though. i don't want to give myself away.
if you figure it out please keep it between the two of us. don't go telling everyone we know cos
[Anonymous]
what you consider to be long. it is black right now, but i change it kind of a lot. it is short for me right now. i know you quite well. i will leave
[Anonymous]
are you sure you will still talk to me? hmm... well you are sweet.
yeh, i am from cali, and i go to ehs. i am short. as for my hair, that depends on
[Anonymous]
peter pan as well, and scotty, you are so cute.
well anyway doll, i will let you be and i'munna shut the hell up now. sorry for my annoyance.
have a good day love*
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[Anonymous]
but this is who i really am. so i hope you like me cos i never really let anyone know who i am for reals until recently when i figured it out myself.
so much has gone on in my life lately and there have been so many things i have learned and i have grown so much as a person and i am starting to like who i am becoming, which is myself. and i have never felt this way about myself. so yeh. well i am done being retarded and i will shut up now. i <3
[Anonymous]
will still read me and i will still read you and life will go on in a happy merry cycle and you won't have to know what a horrible person i am cos you can't figure it out. i doubt it anyway. and if you do i will tell you, i won't lie, but if you figure out who i am and you like me by then for who i am being on this site can we be friends from then on out? unless you hate who i am just by what i write and whatnot. then you can hate me all you want
[Anonymous]
actually i am not 63, i am 16 and i am not cute, i am by far way uglier than you. and i know this cos i know you. but i am not telling you who i am. nobody knows who i am cos i did not tell anyone. well, i would tell you but then you probably won't talk to me cos i am really ugly and i think you think i am a bitch. but i used to have a big crush on you. so yeh, sorry, i will leave you alone now. and can we pretend i never said any of this so you
[Anonymous]
i love you soo much. im glad you like my pointless.. rambling letter. .. have a nice day..
-julie
[Anonymous]
hart scott

you need to fukin come back
-bucky
[Anonymous]
we do need more nice weekends..let's keep our fancy restaraunt thing going.that was nice! thinking positive on the weekends..i had a good one too..i was surprised at myself..keep on keepin on. domination
oh woops, those were from me
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[Anonymous]
say anything cos you are so cute and yeh, i am shy...
[Anonymous]