i was thinking if i were to be in a relationship now how different it would be obviously more mature no silly arguments...well there will be silly arguments but about different silly things...haha oh well, who knows when i'll even get to find out does every mature and long lasting relationship have love? or does it mean you have to be "in love" and is it really natural or okay for two people in a relationship to fall in love with each other at two different times...? how do you know when it's real do you have to lose it first at least once to fully realize what if it comes and you lose it, does that mean it won't come around again or that if it does it won't be as good? does everyone who gets married or has a long relationship and then end that relationship, do they still love each other...is it okay to always love each other but not want to be together? i'm not sure what that means or how that would work is that what we are doing? i don't know i would never say i won't have a relationship again but will i ever be in love again and will it ever feel as right? marriage doesn't seem as much of a possibility anymore maybe i'll be one of those women who doesn't get married until they're 40 who knows if i'll ever be fully mature enough to make a relationship work forever i suppose only time will tell... how many times can i break and not shatter?