just read my comments on my last entry....... i wanna thank varina for her advice i know it would be a shame for me to get lost in my past and sometimes i almost do but i know that i have my friends for me. yea sometimes i slip back just to escape reality.....but i mean you cant bame a girl for wanting to be happy can you? i was talking with matt and i think that i need a boyfriend to keep my mind off things to be there for me. and chelsey i dont know what you can do but if you notice i'm being really distant make me talk dont let me not talk cuz when im distant like that thats when i'm having one of my slipping moments. make me talk i wont want to but make me! i know how i get and i dont like to talk about things but i need to!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~* and in other news.... ~*~*~*~*~*~*~* one of my teachers told me that i have changed a lot in the past few months and apparently its not for the best? tell me what you guys think have i really become a worse person then i was i mean yea emoionally i'm a littly bit fucked up right now but you cant blame me i lost a huge part of my life that i cant ever have back i have the empty void in my heart.... but really has my appearance and attitude really changed for the worse? or is this teacher just a crazy old man?? kristina