do you ever get the feeling like you dont know what your doing in life. like where you are right now is complete waste of time. like you should get out of where you are and makeing something of your self. i've been contemplateing it alot lately, been thinking of moving not sure where, might head out to calgary and stay with nicole and see what a life there brings me, might head out to ontario, maybe head up to whitehorse and stay with my uncle and work for him. theres not much keeping me here in winnipeg, sure i have friends and family but i can always visit them. my job is shit, my love life never has been abd never will be anything to stay here for. i've come to accept that fact that this city has given me all it can, its given me everything there is to offer and now i need something new. i need a place where no one knows my name, my history, my family, my brother. a place where i can start fresh, and just be me. a place that might bring me what i'm looking for, what i want in life, to belong, to find someone special and start a lif with them. winnipeg cant give me that and frankly i dont know where i'll find that, but i will, even if it means spend a few years traveling and finding me, finding my life. to stop running and for once face everything. i guess what i'm trying to say is i wanna get out of here, i wanna leave, experience something new, something i havent done before, be on my own, be independant. i've always wanted to travel europe, maybe i'll do that, i can go to london and visit joe for a bit. he seems to think that my love life can be solved by staying with him for a few weeks, and who knows, maybe joe's right, maybe he can see that silver lineing that no matter how hard i try i can just never seem to find.. i dont know where i'm going to go, or how i'm going to get there or afford it for that matter....but what i do know is that i'm going, i'm leaving, and theres nothing thats gonna stop me...... -kristina