i dont know why but i think im in love again. i know its so shocking for me to say that, me of all people, the girl who swore off falling in love after having her heart ripped out a stompped on. but i really do think i'm falling in love and i know its not gonna end right! its becuase of who im falling in love with. hes a totally amazing guy he cares about me soo much and he would never hurt me on purpose. hes funny hes smart hes athletic, he has goals, i suppose one could say hes my best friend. he knows everything there is to know about me all my deepest darkest secrets and yet hes still my friend, hes still there for me. he knows everything about me but this because i can only imagine how badly saying im falling for him would fuck things up. i wanna tell him but i like how things are, i trust him.....as you all know i dont trust the male species that easily. after what cory did to me i've only trusted 3 guys in my life my dad my brother and him, even now i cant totally trust my dad cuz he will tell my mom shit, my brothers dead, so all i have left is him. we've shared intimate moments, like real passion, he wasnt like the others, i care about him and he cares about me. i want to tell him how i feel soo badly but i cant, it would make things too awkward. i just love talking to him and being around him, he makes me feel so good about myself. i love the way i feel when his arms are around me. i always say im just looking for a guy whos embrace can take away all my pain and protect me from harm...well he does it, when he hugs me i feel like theres so safer place like his arms protect me and he makes everything bad go away. he makes me truely happy....and thats something i havent been in a while. i dont know what to do....... -kristina