Im listening to that Christina Aguilera song "beautiful". It says I am beautiful no matter what they say, words cant bring me down. Yes, its inspiring, but I think, Im not beatiful, and I have been confinced that. I know some of u people think Im talking about on the outside, but Im really talking about on the inside. My mom, has me fully convinced that Im a bad person. I beleive every bit of it. My mom is causing me this unbreakable pain. Its something that lives inside me, like nothing else. She hates me, and shes being meaner and meaner each day. GOD. She just walked in and acted like nothing happened and asked me about rehersal. Ill tell about that later. She such a bitch, she doesnt even know what shes doing. Omg. I just read what I just wrote. Maybe I do only care about myself, oh gawd. I think I do. I dont even want to talk anymore. I dont know what to think. I have so much on my head, these thought pouring throughout my head. I cant even put them down. Im gonna go, I need to do hw, so I can go to college and get away from this horribal place. Ill talk about that later. amanda