Again, things changed. Jesus. Found out from Colin what was up w/ Derek. Dissapointed me a little, but it obviously wasn't meant to be. I'm strong, yo. Jeeze. I am. So strong. To the point where a somewhat rejection over an almost-obsession just leaves a dent, or a scratch, not a hole. Talking to him made me realize that he was, obviously, such a good guy. It's not even funny. He had a reason to be mad, three months man. I told him that he shouldn't have been with me since I was so young and had no idea. Funny how I've grown. How aware I am now of the world moving about me. Just last year, I was blind, and so innocent. But what is innocense? Is it good to be innocent? Maybe not. Even though I have learned more in a year than I have in my lifetime, I'm still me, but with an older mind. Amanda p.s. Shelby: 1.I am officailly HOOKED on Dawsons Creek, it's like not even funny. 2. I hope your New Year was great. 3. We better have a vistit soon, I miss our conversations. 4. We need to go on a road trip and yell at pedestrians, it's like not even funny.