"dont kiss him and color all memories you had of me" -the starting line haha i only wish. he's thinking the exact opposite. he wants me to move on. "oh yea well at least someone is getting some play" he probally doesnt care. he probally wants me to not want him...i know the thought of it haunts his memory. but guess what...i AM moving on. kinda...maybe....but i know kissing a boy is only temporary relief. damnit. in reno i was living on cloud nine. "Wow so I heard u and Tyler Stafford are getting it on." "Ya, i guess you could say that." "Mad props to you, Tyler is a babe." oh yes he is. But Tyler is gone. I'm here. He's there. Only temporary. It's fading. Oh well. I still feel like I'm in Reno at times. Amanda: so what did u do tonight? Shelby: we went to alden's Amanda: alden! hes so tight... i know what its like to go to alden's house. i was there. i know shelby's friends...they are awesome...and i feel like i live there. i wish i did. and it's not because of a certain boy either. too bad we moved. went to santa barbara tonight for dinner with monique's family. Im really sad they are moving. They already have boxes piled high in their house. It's gonna be depressing. wow i just realized two of the things that made me complete are leaving me...or have left -boyfriend -best friend i dont want monique to leave. :( thats all. i dont know what else to write. x0x0 Amanda