Things are alot better than they have been. But I'm guna start with this morning first. Apparently, Maurice woke me up at 6:20 so I could take my adderall earlier so it would be working by the time I got to school. I went back to sleep after I took it and woke up later and took a shower. I went to Sarah's because she was giving me a ride to school this morning. I realized I forgot to take my adderall. I had a 20 mg in my purse so I just took that instead of 25mgs. Then tonight, Maurice asked me if I remembered him giving me my medicine this morning. I was like, what? I didn't take it till I got to Sarah's. He asked me if I took another one. I was like, what do you mean? And he said he gave it to me early this morning when I was still sleeping. It was crazy! I have no recollection what-so-ever of anything that happened this morning. So yeah. I was on 45mgs of adderall today. Its weird though, because I didn't even notice it. But anyway.. I got out of detention and Emily picked me up and brought me home because she had work at 4. I came inside and called Robbie. (Yesterday he told me to call him when I got home today to see where he was and if he wanted to hang out.) We tried to think of something to do for a while but he ended up just coming over for a few hours. We just hung out in my room and watched tv and listened to music and whatnot. We talked some about whats wrong with me or whatever. I feel so much better now. I'm so happy I finally go to see him again. We were just chillen and he decided he wanted to go to Jimmy's to get his hat or something. We went to Old Metairie to get it, then me, Robbie and Jimmy went to some store then back to Jimmy's for a few minutes. He had homework or something, so me and Robbie jetted. He took me home because he had to go pack and get ready to go back to Baton Rouge. Hes leaving either tomorrow or Wednesday, hopefully Wednesday so I might get to see him again before he goes back. I don't know when then next time I'll see him is. I didn't realize how much I missed being around him until today. When we were on our way to Jimmy's, I was so fucking happy. It was like last year when we were going out. Driving fast, listening to music, and just.. Iduno. Happy-perfect. It was awesome. The only thing is, I wonder if it meant anything to him, or if it was just.. Oh hey Kristie. I'd like to think it meant at least something. But I'm not guna think about it. Robbie said he was always depressed because he would constantly think about everything. He stopped thinking so much now, and he's fine. So I might try that and see what happens. Oh. And last night, I was talking to Jordan about everything. He said all I needed was someone to give me a hug, tell me that everything will be okay, and mean it. And it's true. And in a way, I feel like I accomplished that today. I know I probably didn't, but it makes me feel better about things to think that I did, so let me think it so I can be happy. I think tonight, I might go to sleep. Not only that, but go to sleep happy instead of crying myself to sleep. And yes, I know, that sounds very poonified, but fuck you. Thats how it is.. What would you like me to do about it? Leave me alone and let me be happy for the first time in a really long time! :) I have work tomorrow 4-10. I switched with Mitchell and it sucks. But.. Whatever. I need the money. Heheh.. So.. I'm thinking showers are nice. Peace, yo! This is gay. I'm smiling. HAPPY!! Its awesome.