Ever realize how much shit people go through in movies just to stay alive? Its ridiculous. Honestly, if I was put in a situation where I had to go through more shit to stay alive than life is worth, I'd just say fuck it and die. Its not worth it. But uh, hopefully I won't have to be put in any situation where I either have to go through hell to live, or just give up and die anytime soon. The movie's over and I think the rain is too. And it sucks. I wanted it to rain all night. And all day tomorrow would be pretty cool too. I have a feeling I'll be up all night, for another night. I'm dying. I think the only thing that's keeping me alive is Adderall. But possibly it's killing me at the same time? I think that's the main reason I can never sleep and I'm never tired. I don't sleep, I don't eat, unless I don't take Adderall, which is rare, I smoke cigarettes, I smoke weed, and I drink sometimes. Not good. I've gotten 2-3 hours of sleep every night this week. I think the earliest I've gone to sleep in like, a month was like, 3. I got sleep over the holidays because I didn't have to wake up. Now, I'm used to going to sleep so late, and I have to wake up super early. I take Adderall and it like, wakes me up and whatnot. It keeps me alive during the day. Then at night, I'm just never tired. Like, I know I have to go to sleep, but I can't. If I try, I'll just end up tossing and turing all night until about 4:30 or 5 in the morning. So I just don't bother anymore. But uh, I'm bored. And babbling. Seems like all I do now, eh? Thats because it is? Maybe. I'm guna go find something to do. See what movies the parentals rented. Later..