okay, well i guess this is cool. it's like now i have no friends. emily and i rarely talk anymore. same with mike. i don't know why either. i guess lotsa things just changed? iduno. and then sarah, i never talk to her anymore either. she's always on the phone. if i'm there or not, she's always on the phone. so it's impossible to talk to her. and maybe it's just me but iduno.. it doesn't seem like ryan and i are the same anymore either. and that really fucking sucks. iduno if its just me being paranoid or if its true, but i want it to stop. i want everything to go back to how it was a few weeks ago. i just want it to be how it used to. i.miss.it. e v e r y t h i n g