~35o~ Come on, my star is fading

Listening to: Amsterdam - Coldplay
Feeling: fragile
General 1) nickname/s: Katie 2) birthday: December 7th, 1990 3) zodiac sign: Satiguarius or whatever 4) height: 5'9ish 5) weight: Like I'll tell you 6) shoe size: 11 Animals 1) favourite animal/s: Cat/Dolphin 2) animal you look most like: Don't know 3) animal you would like to be for a day and why: Cat, probably 4) any pets: 2 cats, Kermit and Boots 5) ever been attacked by an animal: Maegans demon kitty 6) have you ever eaten an animal that wouldnt normally be eaten: Does rabbit count? 7) any animal you hate and why: Meh...not really. People 1) can you count all your real friends on one hand?: I don't think so. 2) if someone tried to chat you up with a cheesy line, what would you do?: If they were seriously trying, I would go with it, if they were being an ass, I would relaliate. 3) do you often argue with people?: Yeah...unfortunatly.. 4) do you make friends easily?: Sometimes 5) what qualities do you like in a person?: Easy to talk to, trustworthy, loyal. 6) what qualities do you dislike in a person?: Assholeidness. 7) have you had a lot of relationships?: No 8) do you believe online relationships can work?: *cough* In the beginning, yeah, but to make it really work, you gotta meet eventually... 9) have you ever been in love?: Yes 10) more then once?:...Yes. 11) have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes...that I don't deserve 12) sexual preference: Straight 13) ever cheated on a boy/girlfriend?: Hey look, next question 14) ever been cheated on?: I hope not...although I deserve it. Philosophy 1) do you belong to any religion?:Christianity 2) any strong views on religion?: Umm...God exsists? 3) do you believe in god and why?: Yes, cause I do and don't feel like explaining 4) satan?: Well yeah, cause I believe in god 5) what do you think happens to us after we die?: Heaven or hell 6) why are we here?: Cause 7) why are you here?: Don't know yet 8) do you believe in aliens?: Sorta 9) what is at the edge of the universe?: There is no edge. 10) have you ever seen a ghost?: No 11) ever had a dream that came true?: Yes...I wish more did though 12) do you believe in fate?: In a weird way 13) or luck?: Yes, cause I'm the luckiest damn girl alive ♥ 14) love at first sight?: No. Lust at first sight, and instant connections...no love though. Stereotypes 1) what do most people label you as?: Shy 2) do you label other people?: Sometimes 3) is there any stereotype of person that you dislike?: Not really 4) if so, why?: 5) why do you think people conform to stereotypes?:Because they want to fit in 6) did you put that most people label you as (your name)?: No 7) Do you think you're unique?: Just like everyone else. 8) do you label yourself as a particular stereotype?: Nope. Kinda wish I was goth though. 9) if so, why do you label yourself this way? if not, why not?: 10) do you dress in any other way than the 'norm': I wear arm warmers... 11) what would you typically wear on a day at home?: Pajamas, hoodie 12) what about on a night out?: jeans, hoodie 13) why do you dress the way you do?: Cause it involves no effort. Would you rather...? 1) be poked in the eye with a pen OR stand on a drawing pin? why?: Don't know... 2) be eaten alive by a gorilla OR be washed out to sea? why?: Neither 3) not brush your teeth for a week OR not shower for 3 weeks? why?: not brush my teeth...cause I never do...heh 4) eat a live slug OR a dead rat? why?: Neither 5) jog through a town naked OR stand on one foot for 24 hours? why?: Stand on one foot, my towns kinda big and I'm not a running fan...or a being naked fan... 6) burn your computer OR snap all of your cds? why?: Snap my CD's...cause I only have 5 CD's, but I have a laptop Family 1) who do you live with?: My mom/Dad 2) do you get on well with your family?: Yeah 3) any siblings?: 3 4) closest family member?: ...None, really. 5) do you share a room?: At my dads house. 6) are your parents divorced?: Yes 7) would you ever adopt?: Yes 8) do you want a family of your own one day?: Of course Would you ever...? 1) kill a person in self defence?: Maybe 2) kill a person because you hated them?: I don't think so 3) steal from a loved one?: Does chocolate count? 4) have sex with someone for a lot of money?: If the money was needed to pay for a cure of a deadly disease that a loved on had...then yes. 5) have sex with someone for a reasonable amount of money?: No 6) lie to someone you loved if it meant they would be happy?: Depends on the lie. 7) physically hurt a stranger because you thought it would be funny?: No 8) beat someone up who you disliked?: If they pissed me off enough 9) commit adultery?: I hope not 10) get married before the age of 20?: If I found the right person..then I guess, yeah. Music 1) a genre you particularly like and why: Rock...ish...yeah 2) a genre you particularly dislike and why: Rap...cause its rap. 3) favourite bands: U2 4) a band you hate and why: Can't think of any 5) do people assume you like particular bands because of how you dress?: No, cause I usually don't wear a U2 t-shirt...although I have. 6) are the bands they guess right?: -_- NO! 7) what do you think of nu-metal?: Don't know? 8) what do you look for in a good song?: Dunno...good beat 9) what do you look for in good lyrics?: Apply to my life, upbeat, tell a story 10) do you know the words to your favorite songs?: Could type them out, if you asked me to 11) do you know the names of the bandmembers of all your favourite bands?: Yep. 12) is music what you live for?: Sometimes 13) do you play any instruments?: Nope 14) can you read music?: Yeah 15) would you ever listen to orchestral music?: Sometimes 16) have you been influenced musically by your parents/people you live with?: Yeah, U2 from my mom, I listen to Springsteen cause of my dad 17) do your friends all like the same bands as you?: HA! NO! 18) do you have a crush on the lead singer of your favourite band?: >> I can't help it if Bono's hot. 19) if i snapped/stole all your cds, what would you do to me?: -_- be like "meh" 20) go to many gigs/concerts?:I wish! 21) who have you seen live?: Avril Lavinge, U2(Working on Coldplay) 22) are you in a band yourself?: Nope, but I shotgun manager 23) have you ever played for an audience?: yes 24) have you ever told anyone their music taste is crap?: Not really, to each his/her own. Style 1) on a normal day, how would you usually do your hair?: Um...Is lucky if I brush it a style? 2) ever dyed your hair an unatural colour?: PURPLE ^^ three times 3) do you have any piercings/tattoos?: Ears 4) Any scars or distinguishing features?: I have a large scar on my foot, tons on my arms, one long one on my leg...which is stinging cause its not quite a scar yet >< 5) trousers or skirts, and why?: XD TROUSERS! 6) do you enjoy shoes?: Meh 7) what do you think of fashion?: Its...fashionable. 8) ever considered that all these 'goth' kids are just following a fashion too: Umm...Duh. 9) do people think that your style is a bit bizarre?: No...Besides the arm warmers. 10) what colour do you mainly wear?: Whatever's in my closet. 11) ever worn something extremely odd in public? what?: Not really 12) do you wear much jewellery?: 3 rings, earrings, braclets, watch, necklaces...always. I feel naked without my jewlery. 13) how long do you, on average, spend on your appearance in the morning?: Um. Three seconds that it takes for me to look in the mirror. 14) has anyone ever called you vain?: Don't think so. I have called myself vain though 15) do you wear makeup?: Icky. Never. Childhood 1) do you think you had a happy childhood?: Pretty much 2) what was your favourite kids tv show?: SAILOR MOON! OH! SPIDERMAN! OH! OH! THE PINK PANTHER! *hearts* v.v *misses* 3) what was your favourite toy?: Barbie. Def. 4) did you have barbie dolls/action men?: -_- DUH! 5) did you go to a nursery or playgroup?: Nope 6) what was your first day at school like?: Lots of crying...hasn't really improved since then. 7) who was your first best friend?: Shelby 8) did you enjoy school?: -_-;;; Not particulary. Future 1) what future career would you hope for?: Pilot 2) how about a dream career?: Courier Pilot 3) do you plan to get married one day?: I do 4) have children?: 1-4 5) where would you like to live?: Myrtle Beach, California, where I live now... 6) what age do you want to live to?: 100 7) what names would you give your children? Alexis, James are two that I have to have...I dunno about the others. 8) how would you like to die?: Peacefully 9) what do you think you'll be like as an old person?: Funny. 10) will you still dress how you do now?: ahah...probably 11) would you ever get a cloud hairstyle?: oO No. 12) what do you want to achieve before you die?: Travel the world. What would you do if...? 1) a stranger slapped you in the street?: I'd be like "wtf?" and get ninja on their asses. 2) your favourite top got ruined in the wash?: DAMN IT! 3) a leprechaun leapt out of your computer screen?: O.O HOLLY *#&$#!!!! 4) you heard someone break into your house?: O.O *freak out, lock self in bathroom, use one of many phones to call for help* 5) a friend told a secret of yours?: If it was a big one, freak out 6) a parent read your journal?: Um. Die. Cause I'd be grounded anyways. 7) you won the lottery?: FREAK OUT! Then buy a pool. And a porsche. 8) your computer blew up?: Cry 9) you found a fly in your soup at a posh restaurant?: Ewe...Get free food. 10) the world was going to end in 3 days?: o.o Travel to all SC people...Yeah. General 1) if you had to describe yourself in one word, what would it be?: Crazy 2) do you consider yourself kind?: Yeah, but don't tell anyone 3) would you cry if a pet died?: Of course. 4) what do you do in a typical non-work day?: Umm....not much. 5) what makes you feel sad?: My friends feeling sad and being unable to help them. 6) what makes you happy?:...a guy... 7) if you only had one thing for the rest of your life what would it be?: Um...Computer. 8) what makes you angry?: Assholes 9) do you get angry easily?: Yes, somedays 10) do you get sad easily?: Yes. 11) do you hate anyone?:Yes 12) do you love anyone?:Yep yep 13) are you in love with anyone?:...Yeah. 14) how do you cheer yourself up if you're feeling down?: Think about something happy. 15) what one material thing could you not live without?: Computer. 16) can people usually tell how you're feeling?: Nope, not really. 17) do you often share your feelings with people?:...not often. 18) who would you be most likely to share them with?: Hmm. Kayla, Michael, Rach, Matt. 19) does anyone you know of hate you? if so, why?: Josh P, cause he's an ass. 20) do you have any bad habits?: I bite my nails and I lie. 21) have you been diagnosed with depression?: Not yet 22) do you believe in the saying 'life is what you make it'?: Yes 23) do you trust people easily?: Far to easily 24) do you think you are you trustworthy?: Yes, in a weird way 25) ever emotionally hurt a close friend or relative?: I hope not. 26) do you consider youself sensitive?: Sometimes 27) what do you think of war?: I don't like it 28) world peace?: All for it 29) the government?: BORING 30) same sex-marriage?: Against it. 31) abortion?: This ones hard for me... 32) animal testing?: Against, mostly. 33) rape?: AGAINST 34) shoes?: All for 'em 35) this survey?: LONG! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I shouldn't feel like this. At all. About any of them Especially not at the same time I just have one question Why me? I'm nothing special. ♥ ~Katja
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I'm not open I just write in a way that makes you think I am. If I was open I wouldn't have a friends list. If I was open you wouldn't even be able to see my entries. I'm far too scared and far too afraid of confrontation for that.

What I am not afraid of is admitting my faults on my diary. Which a lot of people think is openess. But I don't particularly think so when they're there for all to see on a daily basis.