okay i really don't know what to do about your attitude

like i love you

i do, you are one of my best friends, but i don't know what to do when you get like this and you decide that something is right and when that decision is the exact opposite of what i am believing

like

do you think that repeatedly informing me (out of the blue) that you are sure that my college education is a waste of time and you're sorry that i paid for it like

okay but i already paid for it

and it's not a waste of time, just one class is a pain in the ass but you keep just

repeating yourself in this way that is self-righteous and like quite frankly really annoying

and you keep doing this and i don't know what to do. i don't know how to talk to you anymore because every time we talk it turns into talk about you. even when i need to talk about me and i thought i could talk to you because you used to understand. i know you have problems and i know that you are dealing with your own issues but like

if that's all we talk about and you don't want my advice and i'm just supposed to sit and listen i don't know what to

do

with this

anymore

i miss writing with you. i miss having fun with you and i don't know how to get that back because i think we got too close and now

i just

idk

i want to complain without it breaking down into some kind of fucking lecture on the state of the world

i know about the state of the world, i live in it and i have critical thinking skills too, sometimes i just need to vent and i don't need a lecture okay

okay.

~katja